Monday, January 20, 2014

The Assignment

by Jim Morud

Chapter Seven

An old black dial telephone was ringing stridently when Ken entered the front doorway of Nancy’s home. He stepped into the living room looking for Barbara and called out, “Hello?” Nobody answered.

The phone kept clanging. No answering machine had yet cut in to stop it. Whoever was calling apparently knew Nancy didn’t have one. The ringing went on and on. Something’s urgent or someone’s mighty persistent, he thought. The relentless ringing spurred him to go searching and calling out from room to room. Through a kitchen window he finally spotted Barbara in the backyard pushing Chloe on a swing and Aiden splashing around in a kiddy pool. Nancy was relaxing in an Adirondack chair under a patio umbrella.

The ringing continued. Ken rushed back into the living room and picked up the heavy receiver from its cradle. The coiled cord stretched just far enough from the clunky phone to allow him sit on a brown-leather wingback chair beside it.

“Hello!” Ken commanded, putting an abrupt stop to the annoyance.

The voice on the other end sounded startled to hear another voice. “Harley Phipps here.”

Realizing his tone had probably sounded harsh, Ken came back softer. “It’s good to hear from you, Harley," he said, affecting a nicer tone. "This is Ken Langston. Hold on, please. I’ll get Nancy.”

“No, I called for you, Ken,” Harley objected. “I told you I’d be calling about your compensation.”

Ken sank further down in the chair. This was the call he had been dreading.

“I’ve got some good news and some even better news for you,” Harley continued.
“Oh?” Ken squirmed.

“Yes, we had a prayer meeting this afternoon at the church and we all came up with the exact same number on your salary,” he announced.

Ken sunk a little lower, the sticky leather pulling wet hairs on the backs of his legs.

“We agreed to give you the highest salary we’ve ever given a pastor before," Harley announced. "We know the Lord is in this because we all agreed to it.”

“Well, thank you, that is good news,” Ken ventured, uncertain that it really was.

“And here’s the clincher,” Harley chimed in. “A job came up for you today right in Elk Creek. It’s another miracle.”

“A job?” Ken queried. “What kind of job?”

“Driving school bus,” Harley replied. “I came across Eldon Mack down at Claudette’s Kitchen over lunch today and he told me one of his drivers won’t be back this year. Eldon’s head of the motor pool and he does all the hiring and firing down there. I told him about you and he said to have you come by the shop in the morning, ten o’clock.”

A sick feeling crept over Ken. He held the receiver in front of his face and stared at it, grimacing.

“Ken, are you still there?” Harley called.

“Harley, I’ve never driven a bus,” he spluttered, rising from the chair while stretching its cord to the limit.

“Well, have you ever pastored a church before?” Harley prodded.

“No, I haven’t,” Ken answered, lifting the phone from the table. “I have been trained to be a pastor, but I have no idea how to drive a school bus.”

“If you can pastor a church, you can drive a school bus,” Harley asserted. “Or maybe it’s the other way around. But either way, it’s just hauling people from one point to another and putting up with them along the way.”

“I’m not sure I see the connection,” Ken replied.

“It’s what Pastor Joe Bledsoe told me,” Harley explained. “He drove school bus when he was pastoring here twenty years ago. Used to be, when the mill was still operating, pastors got a steady job there. But after it closed down they took whatever they could find. Joe came here from the city, and he didn’t know anything about driving trucks or buses either, but he learned how. He used to say he learned more about pastoring a church by driving that school bus full of kids than he did in Bible school.”

Harley’s “miracle” had the punch of a putdown to Ken. He felt cornered. So he tried his only way out. “I’m a licensed real estate agent,” he submitted.

“What are you going to sell in this neck of the woods, foreclosures?” Harley pressed, his quiet voice rising to the ire of the affronted. “There’s plenty of them here in Elk Creek, but peddling repossessed homes won’t exactly ingratiate you to the people who are losing their homes. And besides, people aren’t moving to Elk Creek anymore. They are moving from Elk Creek, unless they’re looking for cheap rent in the trailer park.”

Ken was getting the impression that Harley had more backbone than his bowtie betrayed about him. He was a small, thin man who knew how to have his way with people. He clearly had a big deposit of grit tucked beneath his humble bearing. 

“I’m not going to twist your arm, Ken,” Harley insisted, his voice sliding to genial again. “But jobs don’t grow on trees in Elk Creek. If you don’t take it, Eldon will have it filled by tomorrow afternoon.”

Ken heard the commotion of the kids scrambling into the house. Barbara came in following them and she noticed Ken talking on the phone. He looked at her with bewildered eyes. She tilted her head and gave him a quizzical look.

“Who is it?” she whispered.

Ken waved her off. “Harley, can I call you back?... Good. Give me your number.” He pulled a pen and a sticky pad from a drawer and scribbled Harley’s number. “Okay, I’ll get back to you after I’ve talked it over with my wife. Good bye.”

A late-afternoon wind was whipping through Eugene when Ken and Barbara stepped outside and started walking through the neighborhood. Tree branches hanging over sidewalks rustled and creaked above them.

“My first thought of Elk Creek was right,” Ken pronounced, pacing too swiftly for Barbara to easily keep up.

She trotted silently alongside him, sensing he was about to drop a load off his mind.

“I will die on the vine up there,” he went on.

“What’s going kill you?” she asked.

“Maybe I’ll get run over by a bus.” he answered facetiously.

“In Elk Creek?” she wondered.

“Or maybe with me behind the wheel, somebody else could get run over,” he added with mock laughter.

Barbara pulled Ken’s elbow to a halt on a sidewalk beside Pioneer Cemetery. She stared up at his face, registering her confusion without saying a word.

“Harley Phipps called and said he got a job for me driving a school bus up there,” Ken muttered.

Barbara balked at the thought of it. Ken’s driving was definitely dubious and she knew it was a big sore spot with him. Like each of his apprehensions, it had a storied history sprinkled with humiliating little incidents. A notable example came to mind. The day they brought home their new van Ken scraped its passenger side entering the garage. The side mirror went with it. But most of the damage was sustained by Ken’s male psyche, which had taken an unforgettably disastrous hit on a camping trip with Barbara’s parents shortly after they were married.

Barbara’s father, Fritz Beckelmeier, was a man’s man if there ever was one. A big, barrel-chested, thick-necked man, “Fritzy” owned a ready-mix concrete company with a fleet of cement mixers and dump trucks. He nearly lived behind the wheel of his jacked-up, four-wheel-drive Dodge Ram pickup truck. He was an expert outdoorsman, and he was in command of his rig on any kind of off-road terrain. This was the picture of a man that Barbara had grown up admiring.

Ken, on the other hand, had not gotten his driver’s license until he was nineteen. He had flunked the driving test twice before he finally passed it. This too had a story behind it. When he was fifteen Ken got his driver’s permit. One day he was practice-driving in the neighborhood with his dad riding along beside him when he came to a stop sign and hit the brakes too hard, hurtling his dad, who was not wearing a seat belt, onto the dashboard. He hurt his elbow and he cussed a blue streak at Ken. Bailing out of the car, he hollered, “I’ll be damned if I’m riding with you!” He slammed the door and stomped away, leaving Ken to drive home unassisted and illegal. He drove in a slow crawl back to the barn. It was his sophomore year in high school -- the same year his parents divorced. Ken's mother eventually taught him how to drive in the local grade school parking lot.

Ken had never even pushed a clutch before the camp-out. He’d always driven automatics. So when he and Barbara and the in-laws were setting up camp and Fritzy asked Ken to climb inside his rig and back the camping trailer into their site, he froze with fright. To Fritzy, it was a behest of honor to his new son-in-law, a nod to prove his mastery of this manly art. To Ken, it was a pending nightmare akin to showing up naked at work. Not even Barbara knew of his secret shame, or she would have rescued him from certain doom. But there was no dignified way out and no waking up from this living nightmare. Inevitably, Ken’s nakedness was soon in plain sight of the whole family.

No one paid attention to him wobbling like a wet noodle toward the truck. At first, nobody minded that, once he had climbed inside the cab, it was taking him forever just to crank the engine. Fritzy had positioned himself behind the trailer, waiting to spot-signal Ken so he could properly align it on the parking pad. When he finally turned the key, both truck and trailer jerked backward and Fritzy jumped to the side. Inside the cab, Ken sweated profusely. He did the same thing twice more before he heard Fritzy bellowing, “Push in the darn clutch before you turn the key!”


By then, Barbara was watching with clammy dismay. Ken shoved in the clutch, turned the key and the diesel motor rattled to life. Not knowing how to release it, Ken popped the clutch and the truck and trailer shot backward. Fritzy leaped for cover in a patch of Oregon grapes, and the tandem turned and twisted and then jackknifed next to a picnic table.

Fritzy was still scrambling to his feet when Barbara ran to Ken’s rescue. Swift as a firefighter, she climbed aboard and shoved him aside and commandeered the driver’s seat. She cranked the engine and pulled the rig out of its contorted mess. After lining it all up again, Barbara slowly guided the whole business backwards, turning her head from side to side, sharply eyeing the side mirrors while making tiny adjustments at the wheel to stay in line with Fritzy’s spotting. As she snugly parked it into place, she nodded at Ken and whispered, “Done!”

Ken was undone for the rest of the weekend. He couldn’t bring himself to look Fritzy in the eye for shame, and Fritzy couldn’t bring himself to look Ken in the eye for befuddlement.

Through the years, Ken had a few more mishaps behind the wheel, but nothing major. He was cautious enough to stick with automatics, which kept his life a lot less traumatic. And Barbara couldn’t imagine him ever again driving a vehicle more complex than the family van.

“I don’t suppose you have to take the job,” she assured him. Ken stood staring at the ground.

“Did he offer you a salary?” she asked, scraping for some positive news.

“I was afraid to ask him how much,” he somberly admitted. “He wants me to meet the bus-boss tomorrow morning at ten.”

Dark clouds were swirling overhead and a few hard sprinkles splattered on the street. The wind was blowing stronger and the damp-dirt smell of a summer storm was in the air. Ken took Barbara by the hand and guided her onto a pathway in the cemetery. “If it gets wet, I know where there’s a storage shed with an overhang,” he shouted above the wind whisking through the trees. They started in a dash, Ken pulling Barbara by the hand to help her keep up with him.

The rain cloud suddenly burst and giant drops pelted down so hard and so heavily it was deafening. The wind whipped the rain sideways. They were drenched in no time, but it was a warm rain and so they gave up the run. Ken’s green running gear was plastered to his body. Barbara’s sopping blonde hair went brown and stringy and her pale-blue tunic draped her torso like a flimsy wet paper towel. She shivered when the wind gusted. Ken pulled off his soaked shirt and tugged it over her head. Straightening it around her, he drew her into his arms and squeezed her closely against his bare chest. He snuggled his mouth close to her ear, whispering tenderly, “I’m sorry I keep dragging you into my messes.”

“What mess?” Barbara shouted under the roaring storm. “Wherever you go, I’ll go, like your own right arm.”  

Ken held her in a swaying embrace, the wind howling and the rain whirling all around them. “You think you could teach me how to drive stick-shift?” he implored laughing.

“Done!” she sniffled, burying her face in his chest with her tears falling awash in the rain.

The storm passed and Ken and Barbara strolled back to Nancy’s house on wet and steaming streets. After changing into dry clothes, Ken phoned Harley to let him know that he and the whole family would be there in the morning. Overhearing his conversation, Nancy chimed in saying, “Oh please, can I come too?”

“Did you hear that?” Ken asked Harley. “Nancy wants to come with us.”

“This is delightful news!” he cheered. “I haven’t seen Nancy since Fred’s funeral. Tell her I will inform the entire church of her coming.”

Ken and Barbara were sitting on a sofa in the living room that evening, his arm draped around her shoulders, when he asked her, “What changed your mind about going to Elk Creek?”

“Oh, it’s a long story,” she answered drowsily. “Really, it’s lots of stories.” She hefted the church’s three-ring notebook from the coffee table and plopped it on Ken's lap. “See if you can find a story in there that suits you. I’m going to bed.” Rising, she leaned over and pecked his forehead. “Good night. I love you.”

“Thanks for the walk in the rain,” he said, gently squeezing her hand. “I love you too.” She wandered off to their bedroom.

Ken opened the notebook and thumbed through a few pages. He wondered what Fred might have written and he guesstimated where his letter would likely fall in the order of pages. He guessed wrong, landing instead on a letter written by Joe Bledsoe.

“Well,well, it’s Joe, the bus driver,” Ken mused. “So, what’s he got to say for himself?”

Perusing Pastor Joe’s letter, dated October 5, 1990, Ken got pulled in by his candor:

After finishing Bible school, I came to Elk Creek thinking I was called to be a pastor, but I am now leaving convinced that I am not. I am an evangelist at heart. I discovered my true calling here, and that occurred in an unlikely way – by driving a school bus. As the Scriptures say, God’s power is made perfect in our weakness, and learning to drive a school bus was His perfect way for me to discover how weak I am and how strong He is. It was a troubling discovery for me, but driving the bus was a picture of the ministry God was preparing for me.

It started out with some much-needed practical lessons. I had never operated a vehicle with a manual transmission, and driving a big bus was not an easy way to start. At first, I gave my boss, Eldon, fits, grinding gears and twice backing the bus into the garage door. He probably had never seen a clumsier driver. But he didn’t give up on me. I sometimes wondered if the Lord was thinking the same about me as a pastor. But like Eldon, He was patient with me. And so was this church, especially when you saw that I was a better evangelist than I was a pastor. Rather than voicing your disappointment in me, each of you encouraged me in the way that I should go (possibly hoping I would go soon).

My heart came alive when I was driving that bus because it put me in touch with kids who needed Jesus. And He needed to get me into the right vehicle for going after them. For me the right vehicle was not a church building; it was a bus.

I also concluded that, as long as I was occupying the church pulpit, I was standing in someone else’s spot. That’s when I realized I had finished my short assignment at Elk Creek and that the Lord was moving me on from here. Thank you for giving me the freedom to be who I am and for putting up with me while the Lord worked in my weakness to prepare me for my unique calling.


Ken set the notebook on the coffee table and closed his eyes. “Father,” he prayed, “I’m climbing aboard the bus.”

Monday, June 10, 2013

The Assignment

by Jim Morud

Chapter Six 

It was easy to feel at home in Nancy Stevenson’s little brown bungalow. Built in the 1920’s, it was tidy and modestly arranged with period-friendly furniture. Its silky cream-colored maple floor and maple wainscoting gave her living room a mellow, homey look. Simple and yet refined, Nancy’s domain matched her demeanor. 

Chopin’s piano composition, Nocturnes, was playing softly on audio-surround when she settled into an overstuffed chair across from Barbara with a creaky wooden fan slowly whirling overhead. Her long-haired cat, Helga, lay curled up like a furry pillow on the sofa. Barbara’s gaze had drifted to two large paintings hanging on a side wall, one showing three children frolicking in ocean waves and the other showing an elderly couple holding hands and walking along the strand at Oregon’s Cannon Beach with its celebrated Haystack Rock rising from the surf in the distance. Both were Nancy’s own works. Her gentle, artful eyes were now resting on Barbara.

“Every painting tells a story,” Nancy stated, noting her fixation.

“Do you know the people you paint?” Barbara asked.

“Most, but not all,” she replied. “But if not, I ask for permission to take their picture for my photo references.”

“So how do you know their stories if you don’t personally know them?” Barbara asked.

“I don’t know their stories – not, that is, as they might tell them,” Nancy replied. “I tell a story as I see it, and my medium for telling it is paint. If you had seen those same people on the beach you probably would have described them differently than I. And you certainly would have painted them differently. But whether you paint a story with words or with colors, you are telling a story in a way that only you can tell it.”

“And what about the color purple?” Barbara asked. “You were about to tell me how you came to like purple.”

“I was leading up to that,” Nancy replied. “There is a story behind that too.” She lifted the hefty notebook from the coffee table, turning and peering at its pages through half-moon reading glasses.

“Here it is,” she announced. “This is the letter that changed my mind about the color purple. But before I show it to you, may I tell you a story?”

“Sure,” Barbara said. She had sat often enough with Nancy to know that she had already weighed what she was about to say.  

Nancy paused, closing her eyes to absorb a shimmering movement – allegro in the music. “I will try to keep this short,” she continued, opening her eyes. “Have I ever told you how different Fred and I were when we first married?”

Barbara shook her head attentively.

“We were just out of Bible school and we were deeply in love,” she resumed. “Suffice it to say that we were more different than we knew. When we came to Elk Creek those differences suddenly popped out in plain view.”

Barbara smiled and nodded with understanding.

“I grew up in Seattle,” Nancy explained. “I was a big-city girl. We lived in a large, red-brick house on Queen Anne Hill with a splendid view of Puget Sound. My father was a prominent corporate tax attorney. My whole extended family was socially-connected. We were high-church, but I had never heard the gospel until as a girl I attended a Youth for Christ rally with none other than Billy Graham speaking. That’s when I welcomed Christ into my heart. From that point on, Jesus was very real and personal to me. The most evident difference He made in me was my turn from utter self-absorption to being other-oriented. I used to throw some nasty tantrums when I didn’t get my way.”

Barbara flashed a smile as she pictured Nancy throwing a tantrum. Its sheer absurdity struck her as comical. 

“But the more I responded to the Lord’s way with me the more I wanted to know Him,” she continued. “My parents appreciated the changes in my behavior, but they didn’t really understand the reason, and so I became the family rebel when I insisted on going to Bible College in Portland rather than going to the all-women’s college that my mother and my two sisters had attended on the East Coast. Mother was aghast at my educational preference, but surprisingly, my father stood up to her. More importantly to me, in doing so, he was also standing up for me. This was a major miracle in my life and probably in his too.

“Fred, on the other hand, came from a broken home. He grew up in a small timber town called Coquille near the southern Oregon coast. His father was a mill worker and an alcoholic. Fred was hastening along in his father’s footsteps when he encountered Jesus. His life changed dramatically.

“Shortly afterward, Fred came to the college. He was a year behind me in school but four years older than I in age. I had never personally met a man so vibrant in his love for the Lord. He was daring and outgoing and he took the campus by storm. He had the same kind of charisma and zeal that I had seen in Billy Graham. He rallied other students to join him in reaching out to strangers on the streets and bums on skid road. I admired Fred from a safe distance, but I was shy and self-conscious. I avoided the bandwagon because I was afraid my fear of talking openly about the Lord would expose me as a real phony.”

That admission brought another smile to Barbara’s face. It was a laughable thought to her. Nancy Stevenson, a phony – nothing could have been further from the truth in her estimation.

Nancy paused, calmly taking in another shining moment in the music – adagio – which had now slowed to an easy gait, and then she went on. “One Saturday evening my friend, Charlene, coaxed me into going along with the band to downtown Portland. I had heard all kinds of interesting stories of people on the streets accepting the Lord and I wanted to see it firsthand, but with emphasis on seeing it. I only wanted to watch.”

Nancy laughed out loud. For such a soft-spoken person, her laughter was bubbly. “Oh my, was I in for a night! We assembled in a city park and Fred told us to pair up, guy-girl. At first I felt annoyed with him for ordering us around like that. I wanted to stay with Charlene. But after everybody had paired up I felt like the wallflower that nobody had asked to dance. I was the last one standing with Fred after everyone else had gone away. Then he looked at me so sweetly and he asked me, “May I have the pleasure of your company this evening?”

“Ahh!” Barbara cooed. “He was such a kind man.”

“Yes, I thought so too,” Nancy agreed, her green eyes sparkling. “But we hadn’t even taken two steps when we heard a loud scream coming from a corner of the park. A man then dashed out of the darkness and bolted across the street, and we kept hearing a horrible moaning coming from behind the shrubs. I was so scared I wanted to run the other way. But Fred ran to see what was happening. I was afraid to stay there alone, so I ran after him.

“It was such an awful sight. An old man lay on the ground bleeding. His clothes were rumpled and soiled and he looked to me like a wino. But Fred knelt down right beside him. He was shouting at the top of his lungs for help. Meanwhile he pulled open the man’s shirt. Blood was gushing out of a deep slash in his abdomen. Fred pulled off his own shirt and pressed it against his wound. He kept praying and pleading, ‘Don’t die, sir! Jesus is with you! Please don’t die!’ I was crying and praying frantically too.”

Nancy’s eyes were watery and her voice was slightly cracking. Barbara moved beside her and gently squeezed her. Helga jumped off the sofa.

Collecting her composure, Nancy continued, “His eyes were just bulging with fear. I’d never seen such a terrified look on anyone’s face. Fred just held him in his arms as if he were a small child. His blood was drenching Fred’s clothes, but Fred kept urging him to cry out to Jesus. The man was getting weaker and weaker, but I heard him say it, ‘Jesus, please save me!’ It was only a whisper, but right then I saw a peacefulness wash over his face. A police car then rolled up, followed by an ambulance.”

Nancy looked at Barbara and took a deep breath, fanning her face with her hands. “I’ll be all right,” she said. “I’m sorry this is taking so long.”

Nancy, I’m listening,” Barbara assured her, grasping her hands. “I want to know about this.”

“Well,” Nancy continued, “Fred and I ran to a department store and he bought a new shirt and trousers, and then we drove to the hospital. But we were too late. The knife had sliced his liver and had cut an artery. He had lost too much blood and he died before we got there.

“Fred later found out that his name was Marvin Neffendorf and he had been staying in a ramshackle apartment. He didn’t have a living relative. He was also a World War II army veteran. He had landed at Normandy during D-Day. I think he was a forgotten war hero, and he nearly died alone.”

She let that thought linger before continuing. “Fred made arrangements with the Veterans Administration to conduct Marvin’s funeral at Willamette National Cemetery on Mt. Scott. He had never led a funeral service before then. Besides two army soldiers, we were the only people at the gravesite. It was cold and windy and it was raining sideways up on that hillside. We sang Amazing Grace and Fred read the Twenty-third Psalm and he preached a beautiful little sermon to me. One soldier presented us with an American flag, thinking we were family, and the other played Taps. The soldiers left and then Fred and I stood there getting all sopping wet and crying for Marvin, a man we never even knew. And that’s when I knew I would go anywhere with Fred.”



Nancy sniffled and blew her nose into a kerchief. “At least that’s what I was thinking before we got to Elk Creek,” she chuckled.

Andante – Chopin was strolling right along.

“To Fred, Elk Creek was like coming home again,” Nancy went on. “It reminded him of his home town. In those days, the saw mill was running day and night and Fred just loved the smell of sawdust in the damp air. I remember the morning we arrived in Elk Creek. When he got out of the car Fred took in a deep breath and he had this great big delectable smile on his face. He told me it reminded him of how a clean, wet dog smells after a bath. I couldn’t believe my ears.

“To me, the whole town smelled nauseous and his dog analogy sounded disgusting. I told him so. He looked jolted when I said it. That was my first clue that we held some widely-divergent opinions.”

Barbara found it hard to picture Nancy telling anyone so. To her, she was the embodiment of grace – with her every hair and every thought and every word always in its proper place. She wondered if Nancy was even capable of having an argument, certainly not starting one. But she liked what she was hearing, and her eyes widened with interest.

“I detected a tinge of hurt in his eyes and he stared at me so seriously,” Nancy continued. “He told me sawdust also smells like jobs for supporting families and schools and churches and whole communities. Fred was very protective of his roots, as I found out, and he drew the line right there.”

Barbara felt a slight letdown upon hearing the earnest outcome of that exchange, but she held her interest. “So how did you two wind up at Elk Creek?” she asked.

“The short answer is Fred needed a job,” Nancy replied. “We had just learned that I was pregnant, which explains why I felt so nauseated. Fred felt we couldn’t afford to wait for a church to call him. He heard about a job-opening at the mill in Elk Creek, and because he had done mill work in Coquille, he knew he could earn a living.

“We got there just before church on a Sunday morning and we decided to go to the first church we saw. As you may know, there are only two churches to choose from in Elk Creek. It so happened that the Community Church was in between pastors and  they were planning to have a ‘sharing’ service that morning. But Fred stood up and offered to preach. He was always ready to preach. The people were cheered by his message and before we knew what was happening we were getting a grand tour of the parsonage.”

“Viola at your service?” Barbara asked with a lilt in her voice.

Nancy giggled, nodding. “The weather was just awful that morning and  the parsonage looked drab, almost gray. I did not feel inspired to live there. Viola gave us a long history of every room in the house. To prove how well-built it was, she placed a golf ball on the floor and she was proud to point out how it didn’t budge from its spot.”

“Nor has Viola budged from that demonstration,” Barbara interrupted.

Nancy snickered, and then she caught herself. “I shouldn’t laugh,” she said. “Viola really means well. I came to deeply love and admire her. I must tell you more about her, but first I’ll show you what I found out about that purple house.”

The heavy notebook was lying open on her lap and Nocturnes was now swinging slowly – lento – like the fan whirling overhead. “Here,” she said, handing the book to Barbara. “I think you should read this yourself."

Barbara began reading silently while Nancy stepped to the back door and let Helga outside.

June 13, 1967
Pastor Charles Faubion

To our beloved family at Elk Creek:

     Jeanette and I realize that during our three years of ministry among you we could not give to you as much you have given to us. We hope you do not feel short-changed by us, but as you all know, we really needed your help. You gave to us when we had nothing but our tears to offer you in return. Losing our only child, Patty, was and still is the most painful episode of our lives. Without your love and support it might have been unbearable. 
     I have been asked to write this letter for posterity’s sake, as previous pastors at Elk Creek have done before me. With respect to the godly men who have laid the foundation of this fellowship, I feel like a small boy standing on the shoulders of giants. Even so, to future pastors of this church, I offer you our story:
     Patty was five years old when she died last year from leukemia. She first showed signs of her sickness shortly after we had come to Elk Creek two years earlier. When tests confirmed that she had cancer, we were devastated. We began taking her to the Children’s Hospital in Portland for treatments, which sometimes meant weeklong stays. Most of the traveling and overnight stays fell on Jeanette. We took turns, but my second job at the mill kept me from going as often as I wanted to go. It was hard on all three of us.
     That is when the saints at Elk Creek took turns loving us. It would take a whole book to tell all that everyone did for us, so I will give only a sampling in this letter.
     Harley Phipps is in charge of payroll and scheduling at the mill. Although I had no seniority, he let Jack Stone switch shifts with me. I went to working day shift and Jack went to working swing shift. That was better for me and my family. On days when I had to go with Jeanette and Patty to Portland, Jack worked both shifts and he worked it out with Harley for me to get paid for his working my shift. 
     We were served meals almost daily for nearly two years, not only by our church members but also from strangers and people in the area who don’t go to church at all. Somebody had secretly coordinated all of that help, and we know who you are, Alma Fitzgerald. I am convinced that the ladies of Elk Creek are the best cooks in Polk County.
     Gilbert Hawkins kept us supplied with firewood, split and stacked, for the winter.
     There were days when a hug from Claudette Marley was all we needed to make it. Patty loved Claudette’s hugs. She used to say it felt as if Jesus were hugging her when Claudette hugged her. I felt the same way.
     Despite her illness, Patty was a bright and happy child. She had learned to read simple books by age four. Her favorite book was Mr. Pine’s Purple House.

Barbara looked up from the page smiling. She had read that book when she was a little girl. It was one of her favorites also.

     Purple was Patty’s favorite color. She loved purple dresses and purple hats and she even had a purple teddy bear. Her bedroom was decorated all in purple. Mr. Pine lived in a neighborhood where all of the houses were painted white. Because they all looked alike, he couldn’t remember which house was his, so he painted his house purple. The parsonage was all white, just like Mr. Pine’s neighborhood. It had never been any color but white, and that was not likely to change. But Patty prayed out loud in church one day that God would let her live in a purple house like Mr. Pine’s.  
     Toward the end of her fight, Patty spent longer and more frequent periods in the hospital. After one particularly hard stay we got the surprise of our lives one day when we came home, especially Patty. You guessed it. The parsonage had been painted purple! Patty was so delighted that she started squealing and jumping up and down in her purple pajamas, flapping her hands the way little girls do when they are too happy to stand still. Jeanette and I just stood there crying for sheer joy.
     I know that Hank and Viola Chalmers take seriously their stewardship of the parsonage, and they had kept it painted white for good reason, but they seemed to have found a better reason for painting it purple. They painted it purple for the same reason that they had built it – to honor God and to love people.
     The following Sunday morning everybody came to church wearing something purple – hats, dresses, blouses, shirts and socks. Harley wore a purple bowtie. Patty started squealing and jumping again when she saw everyone dressed in purple and Jeanette and I couldn’t hold back our tears. I really lost it when Hank hung his Purple Heart and ribbon around Patty’s neck. Do you know how good it makes you feel to see other people loving your child like this?
     We may never feel so loved again as this, dear friends, but we do want to love others in our future assignments as we have been loved by you during our time in Elk Creek.

Thanking God for you in all our prayers,

Pastor Charles and Jeanette Faubion


Nocturnes had come to its ending and the rickety fan was swirling warm air around the room when Nancy returned. The notebook lay open on Barbara’s lap and she was sitting quietly, looking pensive.

“So the story inspired you to live there,” Barbara said softly.

“In all honesty, at first it was simple necessity that inspired me to live there,” Nancy replied. “You see, I had had the idea that when Fred came to Jesus, he was destined to move up in the world, not to go back to his humble beginnings. And Elk Creek wasn’t exactly Queen Anne Hill. My two sisters had each married into affluence, much to my mother’s delight. She carefully avoided mentioning my whereabouts to her friends. But God had other plans for me.

“So there I was, pregnant for the first time, far removed from my life and family in Seattle, and living in a dreary little town by no choice of my own. And then one rainy day – exactly which one, I can’t remember, because almost every day was rainy – I was bored, and so I sat flipping through this notebook and I came across Patty’s story. After reading it, it dawned on me that, even if I hadn’t chosen to live there, I did have a choice about how I would live there. I could tell my own story.”

The cat was at the door again, meowing to get back into the house. “Excuse me,” Nancy said, rising. “Oh, it’s gotten so warm in here. Can I pour you some iced tea?”

“Sure, I’d love some,” Barbara said, placing the notebook on the coffee table. Helga ran in and sprang onto the sofa.

“Painting was my only getaway,” Nancy called from the kitchen. “I’ve always loved to paint and I wished I had more time for it. Well, I had lots of free time after coming to Elk Creek. So one rainy day I decided to paint the parsonage.”

“You did?” Barbara’s eyes widened.

“I meant on canvass,” Nancy laughed. “I’m not that ambitious.”

“What color did you paint it?” Barbara inquired.

“Just a minute,” she replied. “I’ll show you.”

Nancy walked into her studio – an enclosed window-wrapped porch – and she gathered four small paintings. She returned and set all four on two easels for Barbara to see. One painting showed the parsonage painted yellow like a daffodil. Another depicted it in copper red. A third had it in a soft pastel green. And the fourth was painted with a gentle lilac-purple. Each painting appeared to have been done in spring. Irises and lilies were in bloom beside the porch, and each rendering made the parsonage look gorgeously quaint, like a vacation cottage for a queen.

“What a difference a splash of paint can make!” Barbara marveled.

“Yes it can,” Nancy agreed. “Now, look at each painting and give me one reason why you would choose to live in each house. Don’t tell me why you wouldn’t want to live there. Tell me why you would want to live there. I asked myself the same question after I had painted each of them.”

Barbara stood and studied the paintings. “Okay,” she said. “I would pick the yellow one because it reminds me of a sunny day, and I’d probably forget what that looks like if I were living in Elk Creek.”

Nancy smiled. “That is quite true.”

She pointed at the green parsonage. “I like this one because it is so normal-looking and it blends well with its natural surroundings.”

“And why is looking normal important to you?” Nancy probed.

“I’ve never liked standing out in any way,” she replied. “It’s why I liked living in our housing association. Our house, the neighbor’s house and everyone else’s house look basically the same – only they are painted in different shades of beige. I felt comfortably anonymous living there.”

“I see,” Nancy said, lifting an eyebrow. “And were you allowed to choose the color of your house?”

“No, just different shades of beige,” she replied.

“So you didn’t really have a choice?” Nancy inquired.

“No, I chose not to have a choice,” Barbara said. She sensed that Nancy was going somewhere with her line of questioning.

“Okay,” Nancy continued, “and what about the red house?”

“I would choose this one just to be rebellious,” Barbara admitted. “I’d paint it red just to tweak Viola and her rules.”

“What rules?” Nancy probed.

“When she was showing us through the house she made a big point of it: ‘There’s only one rule!’” Barbara quoted.

“How many rules?” Nancy asked.

“One…,” and Barbara’s sentence trailed off.

“Did she say anything about the color of the house?” Nancy asked,

Barbara paused before speaking. “You mean there is no rule for the color of the house?”

“Not that I can remember,” Nancy said. “I can only remember one rule.”

“No more holes in the walls,” Barbara uttered.

“Did Viola tell you why she doesn’t want any more holes in the walls?” Nancy asked.

“She said she doesn’t want them to look like Swiss cheese,” Barbara answered.

“I suppose she also boasted about how Hank had built the parsonage single-handedly,” Nancy added.

“Yes, with some help from herself,” Barbara said.

“Well, he literally did build it single-handedly!” Nancy exclaimed. “You see, Hank had only one arm – his left arm. He lost his right arm during the war. That’s how he got his Purple Heart. Before the war he was a carpenter, and he was right-handed!

“Hank and Viola were engaged to be married before he went off to war. She came from a poor family of fourteen children. Hank promised to build her a home after he returned. When he came back without his arm, it meant he had lost his means of making a living. She kept her promise to marry him, and he vowed to build her a house. But to do so, he had to teach his left hand to do what his right hand had done, although he never could saw or hammer or drill fast enough to make a living at it.

“After they moved to Oregon Hank went back to dairy farming as his father had done. He never liked it, but he always worked hard at it. And he kept his promise to Viola. He built her a home, but with her help. You see, she recognized that he had lost more than his arm in the war – when he lost the skill of his right hand he lost a piece of his manhood.”

“She told me she did the heavy lifting for him,” Barbara added.

“Yes, she did. But she didn’t make him feel the lesser for it. More than that,” Nancy added, “she was his right arm. Viola stood by Hank.

“The funny thing is that you couldn’t have found an odder-looking couple than Hank and Viola. Hank was thin and wiry and he stood about nose-high to her. But I think she made him feel taller than he looked. They really loved each other. And, oh, how Viola grieved when she lost her Hank. He got kicked in the head by a cow he was milking and he died a few days later. Forty years have gone by since then and she still honors him by preserving his handiwork. That’s why she won’t allow any more holes in those beautiful wooden walls.”

Barbara took the painting of the purple parsonage from the easel and held it in her hands. With the fan still creaking overhead, she quietly studied it.

“Why would you choose to live in that one?” Nancy softly inquired.

Barbara kept her silence for a few moments. “Patty’s story,” she finally answered. “She painted her own story there. Hank and Viola painted theirs. And you painted yours. I suppose I’ll paint mine too.”


Tuesday, April 30, 2013

The Assignment

by Jim Morud

Chapter Five 


The Willamette River flows swift and green through Eugene. On that cloudless summer afternoon hot, listless air hovered above the river channel, casting up a sweet scent of dried bed grass, and the river ran raw and free like the shirtless teenage boys drifting downstream, twirling on wobbly inner tubes, their laughter and their coarse chatter echoing off the rolling water. Patches of cooler air pocketed inside the tree tunnels that bend over the Riverbank Trail.

For six miles or more, Ken strode strongly along the rushing river, his pounding footsteps alerting clusters of joggers ahead of him to scatter when he came upon their heels. Bicyclists were also out in force that day, charging at him from behind and keeping him constantly distracted. He felt agitated. He was trying to think and pray. But with all the noise and shuffle going on around him, his running conversation with God went by the wayside. When he spotted the span of Knickerbocker Footbridge rising up ahead he decided to cross over it to get out of traffic. On the other side of the river, he slowed to a stop at Pre’s Trail.

Ken couldn’t remember the last time he had set foot there. It is a soft and easy trail, but running there had always made him feel uneasy. And now he was really thirsty. Pre’s Trail doesn’t offer much shade and it would be a long dry run in the sun until he got to a drinking fountain. But at least he was alone where he could pick up his talk with God.

Pre’s Trail is hallowed ground in Eugene – named for Oregon’s legendary and nearly-sainted long-distance running star, Steve Prefontaine. It also happened to be the course where Ken had won a lot of high school cross country races. He had run some of his best races there, but strangely, he had also run some of his worst. For some reason he had always felt sluggish running on Pre’s Trail. His legs had no lift, like hydraulics running low on fluid. He struggled to find his pace. He ran tentatively, in anxious bursts, like a kid caught trespassing and fleeing for cover. He remembered running in races when his only goal was to get off the course as fast as he could, which actually amounted to his winning the races. But even now, as then, he had a nagging feeling that he hadn’t yet earned the right to run on that stretch of holy ground.   

Ken started off in a trot. As he approached a fork in the trail, one way leading to a canal on the east side of the park and the other path going along the river, that old hesitant feeling welled up inside of him. He halted and looked both ways, undecided about which way to run.

“Why does it matter?” he asked himself under his breath. “This is stupid. Just go.”

Leaning right to run toward the canal, he suddenly stopped himself and leaned left, turning instead up the path beside the river. He picked up his pace.

“No, this isn’t the right way!” he scolded himself, shaking his head and stopping again. Sweat slid from his brow and stung his eyes. “Doggone it!” he shouted angrily. “Why can’t I get this right?” He swerved around and looked back down the trail, as if he sensed that the answer lay somewhere behind him. With the sound of the river rushing nearby, Ken stood still, hot and sweating and frozen in the moment.

“Why can’t I get this right?” he pleaded. He wasn’t looking backward. He was looking upward. He wasn’t asking himself. He was asking God.

“Why?” he shouted. “I did what You wanted me to do! I gave up everything to follow You! So why do I keep running down the wrong trail?”

Along the Riverbank Trail Ken had been mentally rerunning bits of the conversation he had had with Barb while driving home from Elk Creek. He could still feel the sharp blade of her distress piercing his heart, puncturing the enthusiasm he had felt earlier in the day when he was preaching. Now he felt flat. He had no more lift in his legs. So he just stood there under the hot sun, dripping sweat.

A pack of joggers slipped past him. Ken looked down, hoping they wouldn’t notice that his sweat was now mingling with tears.

“I’ve been on this trail too long,” he whispered, “and I still don’t know which way to go. I don’t know which way, Lord. I just don’t know.”

Not knowing normally didn’t matter much to Ken. He was used to winging his way through life, thinking on his feet as he went. But standing in that spot on that day seemed to matter like nothing else. And he felt stuck right where he was standing.

He was standing knee-high in dry grass beside a slow rise in the trail. A stand of scraggly cottonwood trees tilted over the river about fifty feet away. One tree stood out among the rest. It was oddly shaped like a figure four – one of its branches jutting straight out about ten feet from the trunk and then reaching skyward at a sharp right angle, like a car driver arm-signaling to make a right turn. As Ken’s eyes locked on that tree a stab of anguish jarred him.

“It was here!” he gasped, trembling. “I was standing right here!”

Ken’s gaze turned back down the trail and, all at once, back in time. He was a boy, maybe ten years old. He saw his dad racing toward him on the trail, filled with rage. His dad’s stiff, sweaty figure bent down to face-level with him, his eyes bulging with wrath. “You little idiot!” he screamed. “If you can’t get it right, you can’t run with me!”  

The echo of those words hit Ken like a shockwave. He crumpled to the ground, kneeling on one knee. “But dad,” he remembered protesting, “you told me to run to the water, and there is water in both ways! I didn’t know which way to go.”

“Never mind!” his father exploded. “I told you if you can’t keep up, you can’t run with me!”

“But you were running too fast, dad!” he remembered crying. “You always run too fast for me here. I tried, but I couldn’t keep up.”

“Then you don’t belong on this course!” his father blurted. “It’s no place for bawl-babies.”

Ken sat sobbing in the tall grass, his emotional memory from that distant day uncorked and gushing again. He held his face in his hands, heaving in pain until all he could do was gag.

Two lady joggers ran by him. One paused and asked if he were all right. Without looking up, Ken nodded and waved her off. This caused him concern that other Good Samaritans might stop and offer to help him. If he looked as shabby as he felt, he reasoned, somebody was sure to call an ambulance on him. He picked himself up and wavered on his feet for a few seconds. His eyes were blurry. He focused on the horizon. In the distance, he noticed an easily-identifiable brawny figure lumbering toward him on the trail.

“Oh, no!” he muttered. “Not Chad!”

Of all people, Chad was the last person Ken wanted to see in a moment like this. His commanding presence was good in a business crisis, but Chad was like a one-man wrecking crew when a personal crisis came up. He had no tact. He knew no boundaries. Your business was his business and he was quick to dispense his unsolicited advice.

Ken darted toward the clump of trees by the river. He scurried behind a patch of underbrush and ducked low. Teetering on a loose river rock, he tried to balance himself but he fell on his rear. He rolled over and lay flat on his belly with his face planted between the rocks. He heard branches and leaves rustling and footsteps approaching and he held his breath.

“Ken, where are you?” Chad called.

Busted! Ken scrambled to his feet just as Chad came upon him. Chad stood staring at him, and Ken had the unmistakable look of a crook caught in the act.

“What the monkey-do are you doing here?” Chad bellowed.

Ken couldn’t think of an answer. He just looked at Chad like a kitten trying to stare down a pit bull.

“You look pathetic!” Chad offered. “Either you’ve got a terminal allergy, or you’ve been crying yourself sick. Your eyes are as red and puffy as over-ripe tomatoes. What’s the matter with you?”

Ken still couldn’t answer. He stared back at Chad, fearing his next volley of questions like a punch in the face. Smelling blood, Chad pulled his punch.

“Listen, buddy,” he said softy, “I’ll give you some cheap advice. Next time you’re trying to avoid being seen, don’t do it dressed in glow-green.”

Ken nodded rigidly. He always felt as if he needed to stand at attention when Chad spoke to him.

“And another thing,” Chad added. “I could tell it was you on the trail as soon as you saw it was me. We do go back a ways, you know. And I know how you roll as well as you know how I roll. I know your gait. And I’ve also seen you running in that hideous green get-up more times than I care to remember. I’m not going to say you look good in it, but you certainly are recognizable.”

Ken glanced down at his running gear. He cracked a slight smile.

“Well, looks like you need some alone-time,” Chad said, turning to go. “Maybe I’ll catch you in a finer moment next time.” Grabbing a branch to push his way out of the bushes, he paused and chuckled. “Hey, I’m not trying to play God with you, but remember,  if I can see you running for cover in that bright green suit of yours, so can He.”

Chad pushed past the branch he was holding and let it swish behind him.

Ken watched him go for just a second, and then he bolted after him. “Just a minute, Chad!” he shouted. “I’m sorry I hid from you. But as you can see, I’m a real mess right now.”

“Okay,” he said, turning around in his tracks. “If you want to talk, I’ll listen.”

“To be honest, I don’t know what to say.” Ken replied. “All I know is I’m coming unglued. I feel like my whole life is splitting apart at the seams.”

Chad pulled a big plastic squeeze bottle from his belly pouch and handed it to Ken. “You look thirsty,” he said. “Want a drink?”

Ken pulled the cap and poured water into his mouth until it overflowed and trickled down his chin. The two men sat on a pair of large water-worn rocks beside the river. Ken took a few moments to collect his thoughts. “I’ve always hated running on Pre’s Trail,” he announced.

Chad looked at him with big, dumb cow-eyes. “So if you hate running here, then why are you running here?”

“Well, I didn’t intend to,” Ken explained. “I sort of got here by default.”

Chad still had a cow-eye stare.

“Let me back up a little,” Ken continued. “When I was a kid I used to run with my dad. He had run on the Oregon track team and he wanted to make a runner out of me. I looked up to him and so I wanted to be just like him. I felt proud running down the street beside my dad. I was the fastest kid in school and I kept getting faster, so he took me on longer runs on the trails around town. Then we started running Pre’s Trail, and that’s where he turned into a raving maniac.”

Chad’s eyes brightened. “You mean like Jekyll and Hyde?”

“Yes, he was a totally different animal on Pre’s Trail,” Ken replied. “As soon as we hit the trail, he’d take off like a bat out of Hades. I couldn’t keep up with him, and then he’d get mad at me for lagging behind.”

“So were you reliving one of those maniacal moments today on the trail?” Chad probed.

“I can show you the exact spot where I was standing when he lit into me twenty-some years ago,” Ken said, tossing a smooth, flat rock into the river. “It triggered something deep inside of me, and that’s when I lost it.”

“Friendly fire,” Chad stated matter-of-factly. “You got hit by friendly fire.”

“What?” Ken asked, puzzled.

“He wasn’t aiming at you,” Chad ventured. “Something about that trail set him off and caused his aim to go way off too. You just got caught in the crossfire.”

“In high school I won a lot of races on Pre’s Trail, but I never felt fast enough,” Ken recalled.

“Whose voice were you listening to?” Chad asked.

 Ken picked up a bigger rock and heaved it into the current. “What do mean?”

“Demands, curses, pronouncements!” Chad insisted. “You can hear them howling in your head. They all have a voice. The question is whose voice?”

“You mean, whose voice was I hearing on the trail?” Ken asked.

“Somebody was shouting at you while you were running out there and apparently you were listening,” Chad submitted. “So what were they saying?”

“That I didn’t belong on Pre’s Trail,” Ken answered in a whisper.

“Who told you that?” Chad pried.

“My dad.” Ken plunged another rock into the water.

Chad wasn’t done yet. “When did he tell you that?”

“When he lit me up for getting lost on the trail,” Ken replied.

“So you bought that message, right?” Chad’s bushy red eyebrows lifted with that detection.

Ken nodded.

Chad went on. “Friendly fire is the worst kind of attack because you don’t expect it and you can’t defend against it.”

Chad plunked a fist-sized rock into the river. He leaned forward and hung his head. Talking downward at the rocks and the sand, he said, “I’ve been there, Ken. In another battle in another time and in another place, I’ve been through it. Different war, but same difference.”

Both men sat side-by-side on their rocks staring down at the riverbed, the rumbling rapids filling their silence. Ken sensed Chad stewing over what he was about to tell him. He felt him shaking, but he didn’t look over at him. He just waited for Chad to speak when he was ready.


“We got into some hellacious battles in the Gulf,” Chad started, his voice cracking. His jowls began to tremble. He was losing his stolidity. Clearing his throat, Chad’s face hardened and his voice poured out bottled-up anger. “The worst of it wasn’t what the enemy did to us. We basically ran right over them. It was those spankin’ fly-boys who couldn’t shoot straight! They were supposed to provide our cover, but they nearly wiped us out! During one offensive, eleven Marines in a light armored vehicle were annihilated by a misguided missile that our boys had launched from an A-10. I wasn’t on the spot, but I was nearby when it happened and I saw the carnage.”

By the agony in Chad’s eyes Ken knew that he could still see that carnage, just as Ken could still hear his father screaming at him.

“The hell of it is, it kills your trust, and trust is crucial in war!” Chad demanded. “You can’t fire back at your own people. All you can do is call ‘em off, hunker down and take your hits. It’s the most helpless feeling in the world.”

Chad looked at Ken and Ken nodded his understanding. “Don’t be ashamed of crying, Ken. I cried like a girl that day and a bunch of big, bad Marines cried with me. Sometimes I still cry and I’m glad I still can. Crying reminds me that I really loved those guys who died over there. I never want to forget them, so I cry proudly for them.”

Chad stood up heavily and Ken followed. Eyeing Ken’s outfit, his face broke into a smirk. “You look like a florescent leprechaun.” He chuckled at his own joke and then changed his tone to serious. “But let me tell you something else. I’ve fought beside some good men, and you’re one of the best men I know. So here’s some more of my cheap advice: You always did belong on that trail, Ken. Don’t let friendly fire take you out of the battle.”